you've never heard of spice girls?

So, i'm 22 years old.

typing it doesn't make me feel old, neither does saying it. However, this weekend I realized i'm at an age where i have started to use phrases like "old school" and "wow, that's definitely my generation" or the classic "you've never heard of spice girls?"

It's strange, getting older. Having to make decisions. Or at least finally getting to make decisions based on what i want to do.

High school wasn't optional
Neither was College; i mean it is...but not really
Graduating from college is helpful, too

So, this May i will be graduating with a bachelors in Communication Disorders: Speech-Language Pathology.

what now?

Well, so far i have these options:
1. go to grad school...but where?
2. work... but then i will no longer have any financial support from my parents (sounds silly but w/e)
3. go to seminary?..my mom's idea; who knows i havent' really given much thought to that since i was younger.

Over the last couple months i have felt the need to do more. I feel like i haven't been reaching out as much as I could to people in need; in need of food, water, medicine, prayer, spiritual renewal, a friend, accountability, money, encouragement. I want to do all of this.

I hate money...soooo much. Because honestly, when it comes down to it. That is what is keeping me from being able to make decisions about life. If i don't go straight into school...i'm on my own. i have very little savings. I have a part-time job. I have an apartment and bills that need to get paid. And I still have to eat. Ugh. i know this is a common cry.

How about bartering? I'll give you one goat for a semester in school... okay, 2 goats.

And part of me wants to take some time off. i've never enjoyed school. it always seemed like it was less about teaching and more about awful teachers hating their jobs so much that they make you miserable with an overwhleming amount of homework and a ridiculous grading scale; all the while the school is sucking every last penny it can from you..because you dont' pay enough already for these ridiculous classes.

I want to run around the world singing songs about Jesus. I want to be a soldier on the battelfield. Work a little here and there. Barter some if possible.

gosh...

i guess i'll figure it out soon. May is just around the corner. God will guide me. i just have to be patient.

If all else fails i could always move to Vegas and be a Spice Girl impersonator...