Urge?

This past weekend Ron told this story about this prayer meeting in the 1700s. This went on for 100 years! In the 12th year they were praying for this situation where this man had shipped something like 8000 African slaves to his island. He made a statement to the effect of "I never want any preacher or evangelist to come to this island. Don't want these slaves hearing about any of this Jesus stuff." Well, 2 men in the prayer meeting decided to take action. They sold themselves into slavery. They were sent to this island. Where they would teach the Good News to the slaves there. This wasn't a short mission, or a 2 year project. This was life...as a slave. All for the glory of Christ.

For awhile now, i've been thinking of what I can do. Sometimes I feel so useless; like i'm just taking up space. I know i can be doing more...but what? I would love to work for an organization like TOMS shoes, or World Hunger or Nothing But Nets. I have been browsing Google all day looking for job openings in anything like that. Monster isn't exactly effective when it comes to looking up "anti-hunger and poverty organizations" ha. It could be anything; anti-disease, helping children, fighting hunger, teaching job skills, being a person who cares.

maybe it's just not time yet though. maybe this urge is creating a preparation in my heart so that when the time is right i will have no hesitation.
pray that opportunities will arise or answers will be heard. that I would have a softened open heart.

love love love
"Religion that is pure and undefiled before God, the Father, is this: to visit orphans and widows in their affliction, and to keep oneself unstained from the world." James 1:27